Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

I tried to write in English even mine was bad. Haha.. hope there will be an improvement by the time. Good luck !

Actually, I do not know what I’m gonna write.. hurm, after a long day had been alone, various things happened. I did cry , feel damn weak and fall sick. But I didn’t let others know. How good am I in acting (as usual) Hehehe..

Frankly said, I am not strong. But yes, always pretending I am, and it is work. And by the time, I get used to it. Everyone can see my smile, laugh, and every words looks like I am positive girl, but yet I am not. I can advise others and most of them get up with my words and supports. How miracle was it , How great Allah’s gave me a way to wipe tears and sadness from others. Allahu..

We are tested now, so am i. I tried my best to do whatever I can. I always think of this “ if I was tested and feel difficult, there is a lot of people out there are worsen than me”. Yeah, in a different way, different test and would never be same as others. But, don’t compared. because He test depends on your capabilities. He know you are well-to-do.

What I can see from this, our relationship getting closer and we can sit together, having conversations and shared many things together (remind me on our childhood memories). The moment we never get since a long time ago, as we are working, study, and been in different places. I love the way we’re talk to each other, have a fight for small and funny things and make a stupid jokes and crazy plan. Hahah.. it always happen with my 2 little sisters :o

Good news is, we’re waiting for a baby boy to meet us in this world, may Allah ease everything. Amin..
and I, was planning to go there (beach are waiting for me.. yihuuu). Maybe for a week. Hope beech breeze will take away all this sadness, and let’s turn it to the happiness.

Every thing that happens, there is wisdom. Sooner or later, He will  prove it. Plus, this is “kifarah” for sins I’d done (either I admit, realize or not). May Allah forgive me :(

Always and never stop pray, that Allah will give me strength to go through the challenge of this world. And, keep me away from negative vibes. May I stay “ Istiqamah” and “redha” with what had and going to happen.

inshaAllah, I will never stop even I fall down thousand times.

Loves and hugs “,)